Number Nine. Number 9.

Hey guys.
It’s been awhile
I’m not gonna get into my story right now.
Suffice to say it isn’t ending like I thought.
Again.
Numerolgy says this year was a #9.
That’s not like, one less than perfect.
It’s an ending.
Next year, we’re back to zero.
Then around we go again
2026 isn’t a 9 for everyone. It’s actually a 1.
But this isn’t a numerology lesson.
It’s more of a life lesson.
I basically spent the last decade fucking things up.
It’s also been a decade of loss. So much loss.

But
A new one now begins.
The energy shift is incredible.
It hurts. It’s exciting.
It feels different.
Different scary.
With the possibility of awesomeness.
The cycle of sorrow is over.
I am reborn.
Refreshed. Strong. -Ish.
Ready to get knocked down.
Again and again.
To keep rising up again.
Until my Source consumes me
Dilutes me into the Ocean of All
Until I evaporate into The Everywhere.

All poetry aside…
For now though,
I’ll probably keep fucking up
Different fuck ups.
Hopefully not harming
More than Helping
If you think about it,
That’s the truest balance
We can measure success by.

I’ma try and take Fred Rogers advice:
Be a Helper. We need helpers.

What I’m really trying to say is, our awesome country is in pain. We need real healing. We can’t let a few billionaires and mega-millionaires unite to control us.
We’re ALL Americans. We can come together and decide that The Haters must go. Or we can let them keep dividing us over STUPID false issues, while ignoring the suffering of America’s children.
We are being screwed. Exploited and now, plainly robbed, at the hands of disgusting, wealthy elite who prefer to add zeroes to their bank accounts, while their own full-time employees cannot afford to live without government assistance.
If you still even have a job.

The Ending is the beginning.

The end of two party, pay-to-play, rule by the elite. The beginning of REAL democracy. Yes, the END of The Republic. The start of The Democracy. The end of control by the elite.
I’d rather be controlled by data from experts, and close to unanimous decisions about things that matter. To The People. To US, not THEM.

It’s About everyone having food in the wealthiest nation on earth.
Medicine, without profit. Doctors and medical staff should be well paid, and research should be well funded. By our taxes, instead of funding endless war. And then medical services should be FREE. We already paid for them with our taxes.

Profit for Big Pharma doesn’t make research happen. Research makes rich people a LOT of profit. Most of our research still happens in universities, funded by government grants. We should keep doing that. But…
If our taxes fund the research, the profit should benefit the people. Free medicine. Advances in drugs. New cures for ALL, not just rich people.
But instead, it gets sold for profit. Often for corporations that pay little or no taxes on their profits. Because politicians don’t care, unless we are united.
We all need to wake up. Both parties in America don’t want that. They want us divided, so they can keep fucking us. That’s the bottom line.
So they can keep getting rich by spending our tax dollars any way they like. Then they make us blame each other for their social crimes of greed and cruelty to others.
You see…It’s about our tax dollars going to help people who need help. It’s about We The People deciding what’s important to US
Affordable food.
Good medicine for all.
Good roads
Great schools
Clean air
Guns under control. A well-regulated militia.
Promote Harmony, not blame and violence
Peace before war. ALWAYS.
Helping, not harming.
These fuckers don’t know the meaning.
They are not the magnanimous wealthy of olde, building museums and libraries
They ban books, and defund schools.
Let people suffer when they could help.
They preach violence as gospel.
Might makes right.
Sometimes they use an angry God to back them up. Then they call themselves Christians.

Don’t get me started about Christianity Vs. Jesus. That’s a whole ‘nother conversation.


I’d rather talk about the future, not History.
Don’t get me wrong, I love history.
But now it must become a guide to our future.
Truth in history is truth in our future.
Not lies, and propaganda. Spin pieces, they call em. Junk media, on both sides. Another topic I could rant on for hours. Not now.
Timing is everything.
Now is about unity.
If you hate the other side, there’s no place for you here in the New America. It’s not about blaming the other side. That “other side” is people like you. Just struggling to get by. It’s not THEM.
Know they enemy. It’s about the fucking rich bastards that won’t give back to the country that made them rich. It’s about justice. Truth.  The American Way. All that bullshit they fed you in school that really did used to mean something. In MY lifetime. I’m old, but it wasn’t THAT long ago.

So…Power to The People, America.
It’s about US.
A new American Age is rising.
From the ashes of the obviously corrupt, violent, and hateful oligarchy, our Democracy will Rise.
Not a Phoenix. That’s so cliche.
No, more like a Dragon.
Awaking from slumber. Hibernation.
Remembering we can fly.
And Yeah…breathe fire, if we must.
Emergency use only. Aim carefully.
Hate has no place in the New America.

Self Care

For the record, if it sounds like I’ve lost my sense of humor, I have. There is nothing funny about any of this, and I’m keeping my head down and remaining on full defense. Call it Self Care. It’s not paranoia if they ARE out to fuck you. Trust me, they are out to fuck us. Most of us.



The next few years are going to be unlike anything we’ve ever experienced. People we know and love will die. Women. Children. Trans kids. Refugees. Journalists who dare report the truth.
All Unnecessarily.

People are going to lose their freedom for standing up for what is right, against a completely corrupted government with zero tolerance for dissent. There will be protests in the streets, and violence when Trump sends the military against the protestors. I’ll keep speaking out, like this. Until it becomes too dangerous, or they come for someone I know. Then it’s war.

Simply put, if you aren’t on the right side of history, I don’t need you in my life. On social media and real life. Friends. Family. ANYONE. If you’re still cluelessly sitting on the fence, YOU ARE on the wrong side. I might try to school ya, but only if it doesn’t cause me too much stress and pain. It’s easier to block and ignore.
Like I said: Self care.

This is a hill I will die on, figuratively, but also literally if they come for people I care about. If you didn’t vote, voted 3rd party, voted for Trump, you are on your own. Because you voted to hurt people. This isn’t just about political party, it’s about morality. It isn’t just politics. This is basically America’s moment of Truth. Our own little custom Armageddon, and ironically, the Church is on the wrong side. Maybe it’s because they aren’t reading their Bibles. Or maybe they are, and they’re actively working with the Orange Anti-Christ to make it a reality…to force Jesus to come back or some dumbass bs.
Don’t misunderstand me. I’m not getting all religious. I do believe in a greater power, but i don’t think Jesus is coming to save us. I think we need to save ourselves. I’m just pointing out the obvious similarities between Revelations and Reality here, while knowing there are other, more tangible explanations for them.

Look. Above all, this is about defending myself, the people I love, and all the good people who value the Truth, from harm. Keeping the pain as far away as possible.

It hurts to talk to certain family members. So I don’t. I won’t.  That’s the simple truth. They’ve become immoral and represent everything I detest about America. About Humanity. I may love them, but I have no room for that negative energy in my life. No room at all. It just brings me pain. And right now, I’m not looking for that in my world.

You know what I’m about to say.
Self care.

In The Beginning…

In the beginning, man created God. And in his image he created Him. And when man had learned to use his God as a power to control and exploit the fears of his brother’s and sisters, he looked upon his creation and decided it was good.

In later days, Jesus came out of the desert, and tried to show people the path to inner freedom, free from the slavery to a false god and it’s creators. The same church people who created this God, put Jesus on the cross to shut him up.

Now, as we stumble blindly into the apocalypse, Jesus has come back many times since, an archetype for a stubborn world that never learns. Each time, the Church, or King or council of elders, or right-wing political party, uses their influence and power to silence His voice. Before He can get people to listen. To wake up.

The ‘religious elite’ have learned their lesson about making martyrs though, so they no longer have public trials and executions of people for heresy and witchcraft. The modern church has evolved, and secular government has replaced many of the functions previously served by religion. Now they work together.

The faceless elite, churchy or not, now know it’s much easier to ruin reputations with baseless accusations, or imprison their critics for crimes they didn’t commit. Or for treason or terrorism.

Another Jesus silenced. The power struggle continues. With Them on top, because They control everything. Except our thoughts, though They are trying to do that too, using the mainstream and social media to spread propaganda.

The voice of the next Jesus may be crying in the wilderness already. Somewhere nearby, a ‘faithful Christian’ is planning to ‘shut that heretic up’, any way possible.

(Authors disclaimer: for any MAGA moron who might read this and think, I’m talking about Trump, you are wrong!)

This is not a Christian nation. It’s a nation in which you are free to be Christian.
For Now. Keep pushing this unconstitutional bullshit, forcing your beliefs upon the rest of  us at your own risk. Fuck around and find out how fast we start crucifying your hypocrite asses.

It’s Not About Abortion…

Dear Christian Friends,
There’s a lot more to it than abortion. Nobody wants to have one of those anyway. It’s really about Christian values. It’s a WWJD question.

Should you vote for the party that wants to feed the poor, heal the sick, and welcome the immigrant? Who accept all people as equal, regardless of religion or gender or skin tones?

Or should you choose the ‘Good Guys’, the one’s in Red Hats, who think they have the right to force their ‘Christian’ beliefs upon all American women? Upon the rest of secular America. It’s not the Beliefs, it’s the forcing. Don’t let them lie to you: Christians aren’t hated for what they believe. It’s more what they DO in “God’s Name” that pisses people off.

At some point, you gotta ask yourself honestly: How would you like it if someone forced YOU to join the Satanic Temple? Or if they changed The Pledge to “One Nation, Under Allah” and forced you to say it. Or put “In Beelzebub We Trust” on the Greenback? Putting 666 on every bill, coin or credit card?

Because if you allow them to do it in Jesus name, they could do it in Lucifer’s in 2028, right? We’d all be much better off, by the way, because the Satanic Temple would allow us freedom to worship as (or IF) we please. #FirstAmendmentRights are important, right?

But finally, it’s your choice to make. Decide wisely, while you still have a choice. Re-read that last Book in your Bible (before they censor IT…again) and maybe seek God’s advice, if you STILL have doubts. You don’t need me to tell you what it says about…well, you know. #AwakeNotWoke

Protest for Women’s Rights
WWJD?

Dear Pro-Life Men

I’m just gonna say it. Any man that isn’t pro-choice, is an asshole. 100% of them.

Photo: Jack’s Eye by Jamie Gray

Message To Pro Life Men – Dude. It’s not about you, and your probably unimpressive equipment. It’s certainly not about God. It’s about something you probably know next to nothing about. So why not just STFU, and be honest about how threatened you feel around strong, confident women. Women are not yours to control. Let the doctors and families handle the tough decisions for ALL Americans.
I am not uncertain.

Religion isn’t about God

It doesn’t matter which God you choose to call your own, RELIGION is the ultimate problem that mankind must overcome. Religion is, by definition, perversion of God to manipulate people into behaving a certain way. God just IS (or isn’t). What you believe about Them isn’t relevant to anyone, except to YOU and God.

At best, religion is a distraction from finding your own spiritual destination. Easy answers to reassure, instead of clues about your truths. At it’s worst, religion has brought us countless Crusades and Jihads, The Holocaust, 9/11 and The War on Terror, and so many other atrocities committed by “righteous men” in the Name of God.

Religious hypocrisy is legendary, and yet the sheep keep coughing up their tithes to reach enlightenment or avoid the scourge of Hell. I completely understand the need to believe in something. I just think it’s better to search for, and believe in your own truths, rather than in others who might profit off your faith.

Authors Note: All opinions expressed here are just that: opinions. If you don’t like mine, I probably won’t like yours either. Let’s just nod, and walk away. Maybe come back with solutions instead of opinions. Because of the two, only solutions actually matter.

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Merry Solstice

Jesus didn’t die for my sins.
Jesus was murdered because he stood up for the poor; killed because he championed the ‘unclean’; the immigrants; the needy.

Jesus was assassinated by the church for doing good and preaching peace, targeted because he threatened their profits and the status quo.

Jesus died because he spoke truth to power. Then his killers created a bunch of lies and rules in His Name, that they’ve used ever since to exploit the uneducated, rather than teach them to be free.

Merry Christmas. May the Truth actually set you free. Happy Solstice. May the rebirth begin.